My Blogging Journey

It's Day 20 of RMO, and my sisters and I are now running out of diverting movies/tv-shows to watch. I miss writing so much, and since I've been at home for a while, I guess I have more time for my blog.

Both my blog and I evolved a lot during the past decade, My old contents were cringe-worthy, but in a way, it is nice to see the growth. I started blogging at the age of 13 in 2009 just for fun. Just like people used Myspace and Facebook, I used my blog to rant on my life. My first 200 posts were utter rubbish, and the contents were so immature. Well, I was 13 back then...

But when I started to learn more and more about blogging, I began to want to make my blog prettier. I remember I started learning photoshop and trying to set up my own theme by using CSS and HTML codes with the help of tech bloggers and making my blog prettier. I have garnered more than 1000 followers after 5 years of blogging and made some virtual friends (and we still keep in touch with each other). It was great to meet new people with similar interests and establish connections with them to the point you consider them as friends, even though you've never met face to face. Oh, good old days.

My blog started off with the title "Hati Hawa", and I always put "notahatihawa" to end my posts. It was sort of a sense of closure. Cringe. I know.

W When I first entered foundation studies, I started struggling emotionally. I was probably the biggest overthinker in the world, which led me to become paranoid and insecure. I'm still an overthinker and have negative thoughts, but back then, it was a lot more severe. I turn to the blog. And I think my over-overthinking habits started me to write a lot of deep, depressed, and beautiful-written cringy posts. I turn to my blog as if confiding in a friend. While I can't say I have moved on from those past feelings completely, I'm still proud of who I am. Blogging has always been an online diary for me. It's almost therapeutic.

I quit blogging for a year to focus on my college stuff, and one day, I came across a blog, which made me instantly hooked. I read pieces after pieces of the content, and suddenly it hit me; I want to start over.

While most of my blogger friends' blog has gone void and left un-updated for years, I decided to start over. http://ain-soofiyah.blogspot.my is my first URL, and I never changed it for 10 years, I think, as changing it means losing my traffic. Change can be pretty scary at first, but it is also an opportunity for growth. I did a lot of research before I came to a decision to start investing in my blog. I purchased a new domain and installed pretty themes from Etsy to take my blog to the next level and start blogging more seriously. It's funny to see how I'm constantly changing my mind about everything. I still can't decide my blog niche and color scheme because that's how indecisive I am and like too many different things. But the reason I blog has always been the same. I've always wanted my blog to be the platform to voice out my struggle and passion and to connect with more like-minded people out there.

I started this blog because of me, and it's still is.